the one with it

i guess i am not that upset as i was since last time. but please, do not keep asking me for the reason. it is between us. i have stop waking up with severe heartache, but it still does hurts every now and then. and when it comes, there is just no way i can stop it. i feel like i am adapting for the sake of it, for not wanting to destroy what is in front of me. i just hope i can get over it and take one step at a time. there might come a time when i totally do not care what she does already. but i think it will never come. it is depressing still. but i got to face the fact. i believe in doing unto others as what others would do unto you. that is definitely true and i have to learn to accept it instead of telling others to do so.