the one with the taiwan trip
back from taiwan last night and i don't really know if i enjoyed it. but i do really enjoyed the company of all my friends. they were there when i needed the company. taiwan was alright i guess. i prefer the scenary and stuff. shopping isn't my priority. i think it is good to travel and see how big the world is, and appreciate their culture as well. their way of life and everything. i will definitely travel at least once every year given the time and money in the future.
it ain't easy. but i have to go through it. there are many other things around me to appreciate and live for. so many things to look forward to and i shouldn't restrict my future. but sometimes, it is really easier said than done. i can give many advices to my friends around me, helping them in their problems. but who is there to help me when i needed to give my inner thoughts.
sometimes, i don't feel that i am appreciated. i do stuff to help, to please, to be there as a friend. but do people come up to me and ask if i needed these as well? or is it that i simply shut my thoughts too tight that people don't know what i am thinking of and don't dare to ask me. i longed for an outlet. for somebody to share with. but it never really came.
how to read people's thoughts? i longed for that too. it is really mind boggling trying to guess what others are thinking. my life has been filled with regrets. be it big decisions or small ones. but they have affected and shaped my life throughout. some things are hard to decide. but i wished i could just go ahead and do it without thinking. just go for it and so what if i failed? but at least i tried going for it and had tried to find out whether i stood that chance. but time is against me. i shall try when things are right.
all and all, the trip was good. but it is sad knowing that all of us are heading our different way of life in the future. i will definitely try to make time to get together again. i hope they could spare the time and effort to do so as well. i can't emphasize how much i enjoyed their company for the trip. the laughter still lingers.
it ain't easy. but i have to go through it. there are many other things around me to appreciate and live for. so many things to look forward to and i shouldn't restrict my future. but sometimes, it is really easier said than done. i can give many advices to my friends around me, helping them in their problems. but who is there to help me when i needed to give my inner thoughts.
sometimes, i don't feel that i am appreciated. i do stuff to help, to please, to be there as a friend. but do people come up to me and ask if i needed these as well? or is it that i simply shut my thoughts too tight that people don't know what i am thinking of and don't dare to ask me. i longed for an outlet. for somebody to share with. but it never really came.
how to read people's thoughts? i longed for that too. it is really mind boggling trying to guess what others are thinking. my life has been filled with regrets. be it big decisions or small ones. but they have affected and shaped my life throughout. some things are hard to decide. but i wished i could just go ahead and do it without thinking. just go for it and so what if i failed? but at least i tried going for it and had tried to find out whether i stood that chance. but time is against me. i shall try when things are right.
all and all, the trip was good. but it is sad knowing that all of us are heading our different way of life in the future. i will definitely try to make time to get together again. i hope they could spare the time and effort to do so as well. i can't emphasize how much i enjoyed their company for the trip. the laughter still lingers.
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