the one....

i dun want to wake up every morning with pain

i dun want to have any more regrets in my life

i just want things to be simple

the one with deep abyss

sinking into a deep abyss.

no meaning at all.

心如刀割.

karma.

i dun wan to form a bad habit.

i need a new source of relief. not that.

the one with love

chanced about this when watching the somebody video.

Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning
Love is holding that special someone closely and realizing that it is still isn’t close enough
It is hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does.
The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or heard but must be felt with the heart
Because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to
It doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have
Sometimes it is hard to love someone because you are so afraid of losing them
The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to let go
Some things in life are worth waiting for even if it means waiting forever
Love isn’t about finding the perfect person
It is about seeing all imperfect person perfectly
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go
And knowing when to say goodbye
It is hard to pretend to love someone when you don’t
But it is harder to pretend that you don’t love someone when you really do
The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you
And yet you know you can’t have them
The love you can’t have last the longest feels the strongest and hurts the most
It is better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all
If you really love someone, set him free
If he doesn’t come back, you are not meant to be
If he does, he is yours to keep
Never say goodbye when you still want to try
Never give up when you feel you can still take it
Never say you no longer love a person when you can’t let go
The deeper you fall in love, the harder it is to get out
If you love someone, tell them
Because hearts are often broken with words left unspoken
Moving on is simple
It is what you leave behind that makes it so difficult
Love begins with a smile
Grows with a kiss
And ends with a tear

the one with somebody

depeche mode,somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

the one with the taiwan trip

back from taiwan last night and i don't really know if i enjoyed it. but i do really enjoyed the company of all my friends. they were there when i needed the company. taiwan was alright i guess. i prefer the scenary and stuff. shopping isn't my priority. i think it is good to travel and see how big the world is, and appreciate their culture as well. their way of life and everything. i will definitely travel at least once every year given the time and money in the future.

it ain't easy. but i have to go through it. there are many other things around me to appreciate and live for. so many things to look forward to and i shouldn't restrict my future. but sometimes, it is really easier said than done. i can give many advices to my friends around me, helping them in their problems. but who is there to help me when i needed to give my inner thoughts.

sometimes, i don't feel that i am appreciated. i do stuff to help, to please, to be there as a friend. but do people come up to me and ask if i needed these as well? or is it that i simply shut my thoughts too tight that people don't know what i am thinking of and don't dare to ask me. i longed for an outlet. for somebody to share with. but it never really came.

how to read people's thoughts? i longed for that too. it is really mind boggling trying to guess what others are thinking. my life has been filled with regrets. be it big decisions or small ones. but they have affected and shaped my life throughout. some things are hard to decide. but i wished i could just go ahead and do it without thinking. just go for it and so what if i failed? but at least i tried going for it and had tried to find out whether i stood that chance. but time is against me. i shall try when things are right.

all and all, the trip was good. but it is sad knowing that all of us are heading our different way of life in the future. i will definitely try to make time to get together again. i hope they could spare the time and effort to do so as well. i can't emphasize how much i enjoyed their company for the trip. the laughter still lingers.

the one with impact and influence

there are bound to be people who at some point of time placed an impact and influence your view of life. for me, there are many. i learnt alot from them and it has helped me shaped my way of life.

i looked up to both my brothers. they are the guiding light in my life. though i seldom talk to them about my problems, they were the ones i talked to when i needed help and advice. i look at my eldest bro who just got married. i see their relationship as something that is important in sustaining a relationship. one that will see them thru thick and thin, thru sick and old. as what the marriage vow always say. they are testament to that. yes, there are bound to be quarrels and fights but which relationship doesn't. it is all about give and take. suddenly remember joey said something about their love is about giving and sharing and receiving. that cannot be any truer in real life. i can't think of anyone else who are so made for each other than the two of them. although i never really knew their relationship, feeling tells me they are going strong.

i learnt alot from my 2nd brother as well. he gave me great advice in whatever i do. letting me go ahead in things that i feel correct and not restricting my choices. telling me to go out there to do whatever that i feel right and does not have to bother what others think cos it is my choice in the end and i have to be responsible for this chioces. his relationship with joanna is something to look up to as well. an 9 year relationship ending up in marriage soon. i don't know what is their secret behind both their relationships. but i will know one day, when i do get married and give thanks, i will definitely give my gratitude to both of them for being my companions thru the past years. they have no doubt shaped the way i see things, and influence the way i live my life.

but when i looked back at myself, why i just can't be like them?

the one with some thoughts

haven been updating. let's see. i've been reading this book by anthony robbins. really helps in controlling my temper. i learnt to see things in a different perspective. though sometimes it might be self denial, but at least it helps me see things in a different light. but the progress of reading the book is so slow. proscratinate once again.

i went for an interview the other day. the feeling was different as i had secured a job already. but i realised this should be the attitude which would best show your personality. if i had prepared, i would have memorised what i wanted to say and answer the questions with my prepared speech. but i guess it is also hard. if i didnt have uob, i will be scared stiff. did i make the correct choice or am i giving excuses to justify my choice?

worked bmw corporate event on friday. give me some thoughts of what social life will i be having when i start work. and what kind of life i want in the future. i guess it is about what my bro told me: give th ebest in eerything you do and you will suceed. do not be working towards money and promotion. it will come as long as you excel in doing what you do.

trying my best to arrange to meet up with friends. but sometimes it is just hard to coordinate all. you either don''t get replies or some are too busy to meet up. it is the effort to meet up bah.

it is a small world afterall. i think all of us are related in one way or another. depends on the number of linkages between friends.

GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!

the one with gatherings

i like gatherings, but i guess i prefer small group ones. cos i think it is hard to talk to everyone in large group. you will definitely hang around with some people more. i hope that i can maintain friendships with others. it is important to me. i still think that it just takes a little effort to do so. i think i learnt from my mum in wanting to be a good host. it is good to have meet ups and gathering, among friends or relatives, cos it is the ties that matters.

haven been doing what i wanted to do after the exams. gotta start bucking up.

the one with the end

it has come to an end of my school life. all good things must come to an end. it is school where i made many new friends whom i still keep in contact till today. it is school which has taught me invaluable lessons. it is school which has given me the chance to learn many skills. but i have to move on to the next phase of my life. the corporate school. i foresee a tougher future. more friends, more skills, more opportunities. but i believe i am adequately equipped to face the challenge out there.

things are gonna be a bit different. it has been 3 years of hall and now, i will always be at home.

justice is done. to hell to those assholes. dun mess with us.