the one with the random

i guess there is no point worrying about such stuff. it would only bring down my mood which i do not want to. i want to feel happy and good and stick to the law of attraction. as the secret said, there are always times when it makes you feel down and out, and if you let such emotions control you, you are likely to be attracted to bad things. i tried always to control all my different emotions by emersing myself in the music. now i am questioning myself on whether do i really feel good or as what others said, avoiding it. but i do noe that there is nothing wrong at all. it is just that this is something new to me in my final year of study. i always stick to the same group and i feel that this is something that a uni life should have, mixing around with people. it boils down to me not joining the camp from the start, one of my regrets. if that is what others want to think, so be it. i can't stop them from doing so and it goes both way, they can't stop me from my opinions of them. i guess i had a slight taste of my own medicine and it is a tad bitter.

i guess i am just not those smart people around who excels in their studies or scored above average. i am just your average joe in studies. for my exams, i realised my efforts are really bare minimal. partly because of a secured job, but i also want to enjoy the last few moments of my school life. i always give myself excuses that i won't flunked too badly for the exams so i didn't really put in much effort as compared to previous ones. but now i kinda feared for any glitches that might just pop out. so i am bucking up a little, just to give myself a final push to the finish line. but i strongly believed in the process than the results.

i miss home. i miss my gf.

give me something to punch at. dun give a flying fuck. let the music heal your soul.