the one with the career

made perhaps the biggest decision in my life so far. signed a contract with a company doing sales of financial products. listened to countless advices before making my decision. but sometimes i wonder am i really making the correct choice or i am just plain lazy to find another job? that might be a factor. but the pros of this job outweighs the cons of it. this coy teaches u the ropes to kickstart your career, as heard. my jobscope teaches me how to communicate with people, teaches me the soft skills required in a "human capital" only Singapore. i believe that it is important to take a few years to learn these skills, and to find my "calling", in which career path i am most suitable for. i take my bro's opinion seriously and it is not about the money and promotion that matters and i shouldn't aim towards that. instead, focus on the things you are doing and excel in everything and the tangible benefits will come sooner than you know it. i know myself. i might not be that cut out for the sales kind of job yet. but ultimately, i know i gotta learn and there must be something in me that the coy is looking for and i am going to perform to my fullest potential. however, i kinda regretted in not able to get into MA program. these people are earmarked by the company for leadership positions. though they might be my peers, they will climb faster than me in the corporate ladder. but i believe if i give in my best, i still stand a chance years down the road in taking management position in any company. i am so looking forward to the job.

on a different note, i had a great weekend at my new house with my relatives visiting. i came to see some heartwarming moments from my 2 cousins. they are very close to each other and i believe it is good that they do not live in separate rooms. this is a very important aspect as siblings should talk to each other from young and not live in their own world. for my cousin, he is super polite and this further strengthen my beliefs in parental guidance. your parents have a great influence in the way u behave.

i guess it is time to put my time and effort into my studies. another 1 more month and i am out of the school phase. but the learning never stops there. it is going to carry on for life.

the one with the new house

still adapting to my new house. all seems so different. from the walking home from the mrt, from the view from my window, from the sleeping in my own room, from the having my own room part, from the totally new environment, all seems so different. i am still adjusting to being a heart-lander now. but i can't get used to the noise downstairs which annoys me nowadays. the constant bikers who can't seem to rev their bikes to the max makes my env uncomfortable sometimes. i think i will need months before i get used to it. but i know i can adapt to it no matter what. not tat i am proud of my adaptability but i do keep adapting to what is around me. trained from army i guess.

i think it is important to have close friends. and i am glad i do have such friends. the first step to law of attraction is to be grateful to what is around you. and i am doing that daily.

the one with the new beginning

i realised what i have been searching for all my life. i was tempted to change my religion in an attempt to find aim in life and to have meaning. now i realise that this is just another avenue of comfort that i sought when i am feeling down. it is self fulfillment i am looking for. when i feel sad or unhappy, i am just looking for avenues of comfort to release the tension. after watching this video titled 'the secret', it has opened up my mind and perception on things. the law of attraction basically means you attract good and bad things according to how u feel. your feelings dictate what kind of life and things you attract. i don't know how to explain this but do watch it at http://www.universallawstoday.com/secret.html to learn more about it. it has certainly made an impact in my life.

i shall try to take things in my stride and go for what i really want. no point being angry and sad for whatever reasons because no one pays me to be sad or angry. just try to feel good in everything that i do and i will attract good things that will come in my stride. learn to feel good to accomplish what i really want in life. and i do know what i want now and i am visualizing the image in my head now and then. learning from a new perspective. i am do hope i will carry on this optimism all the way.

met my army officer in school when i was on my way back home. surprisingly he still remembers me and we chatted amicably for a while. it is this kind of poeple that i would like to meet in my life. they appreciate what you had done for them last time and are sincere towards you. they are the ones who are successful in life and well liked by people. i look up to this kind of people. and hope to meet more of this calibre in the future.

sudden reminisce of the past again.

the one with regrets

people used to say that life is filled with regrets. there are so many things that i wanted to do but in the end, i proscratinated and didn't do what i wanted to. I have no idea why i didn't pursue my goals and at the end of my university life, i know that i will be telling myself "i should have" on many occasions. would things be a little different and not filled with regrets if i went for it. but sometimes maybe i am afraid of failures and not confident of my capabilities as well. one would never know the outcome if he or she doesn't try. it is a matter of just going for it and knowing the results in the end. i noe that things might be a little different and i could have done better in many ways that i could if i had just try. i shall try to make my life filled with less regrets in the future.

the one with goodbye

finally i moved house. it was a very hectic day. but deep down inside, i think my whole family feel sad. it has been our home for my brothers and i since we were born. we wrestled there, we quarrelled there, we played soccer there. there were so many many memories there. what is left are only our faint memories of the old apartment. my mum were also saying how we grew up there and i knew that she was very upset too. but come to think of it, life changes. this is the 2nd major change this year that i clearly have to adapt to. i took alot of pictures cos i dun want to forget this place. it is filled with happy and sad memories. goodbye, my home for 23 years, 34A Mar Thoma Road.

the one with testify to love

Testify to love, Avalon

All the colors of the rainbow
All of voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the Hope in every heart will speak what love has done

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I takeI will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

the one with my bro's wedding

yest was one heck of a day. i shall not go through the whole procedures of the wedding itself as it is always the same. i really felt very happy for my bro and his wife. although i do not really know his wife that well, i knew that their love for each other is unmatched by others. it is the common goals that they both wanted and the interests that they shared that have brought this lovely couple together. the things my bro said at the altar, really made my whole family teared. and i did tried to hold my back tears, but seeing my 2nd bro tearing as well, i couldn't help but let my emotions take control. we have been brothers for so long and now he is going to start living on his own. although there are times when i detest his presence, i know i am going to miss that sorely for the years to come. i will learn to cherish all around me.

i have expected this year to be filled with many changes. this is the first one that i have to adapt to. and shortly after, i have my house moving to worry about, my career to look for, and my 2nd bro's wedding. i will never forget what my platoon commander(Gan Eng Seng) in OCS mentioned before. i will have to learn to adapt quickly you never know situations will change. it is these words that have brought me through at least 5 changes in courses during my army days. there is really nothing much i can do now but to adapt quickly.

a thought crossed my mind during the church ceremony. been trying to find meaning and direction in life. wonder if i should or not. i believed that it is the music that captivates me. and the preaching that is so pure.