the one where it's been a long time
16th dec was the last time i blogged. a cool 3 months since i updated. i think i was too lazy or perhaps, there was less thoughts i wanted to share.
just went through kind of a mock interview today. realized it is really all about the results out in the real world. who cares what your personalities are? what achievements you have? your results are the prerequisites for all! feeling more and more demoralised each day. getting slacker each semester. maybe just disappointed at the way things are. i am not a smart person, and i thought i can improve that through other skills. but it's really all about the results in the end. sad but true. only thing i can do is to study hard. but no guarantee as well.
nowadays, i begin to see a different light in some way. beginning to appreciate the little things in life. seeing my aunt, wheelchair bound and needing someone to help her to move about for the rest of her life, really breaks my heart. she have been slogging for more than half her life and instead of 享福, she require an oxygen tank wherever she goes as well. so sad to see her like that.
and yes, i fucking hate acs boys. a bunch of fuck up ppl who thinks that money can rule the world. with money, they can do whatever they wan. and who are the people who supplies them with money? their parents!
i dunno how people earn so much to afford a large house. but i hope it is not against one's conscience. no doubt i would feel jealous and it spurs me to do even better. but i know that Ding family is unique and it's sooner or later we make a name for ourselves.
feeling the pressure of foc. dunno what to do at times and dunno whether i am capable of tasks. just need to be more proactive to get things going. applies to my studies as well. i know very well that i am laggin and just can't get started. what a talk about all the bucking up but no actions done. really feel like giving it all up.
just went through kind of a mock interview today. realized it is really all about the results out in the real world. who cares what your personalities are? what achievements you have? your results are the prerequisites for all! feeling more and more demoralised each day. getting slacker each semester. maybe just disappointed at the way things are. i am not a smart person, and i thought i can improve that through other skills. but it's really all about the results in the end. sad but true. only thing i can do is to study hard. but no guarantee as well.
nowadays, i begin to see a different light in some way. beginning to appreciate the little things in life. seeing my aunt, wheelchair bound and needing someone to help her to move about for the rest of her life, really breaks my heart. she have been slogging for more than half her life and instead of 享福, she require an oxygen tank wherever she goes as well. so sad to see her like that.
and yes, i fucking hate acs boys. a bunch of fuck up ppl who thinks that money can rule the world. with money, they can do whatever they wan. and who are the people who supplies them with money? their parents!
i dunno how people earn so much to afford a large house. but i hope it is not against one's conscience. no doubt i would feel jealous and it spurs me to do even better. but i know that Ding family is unique and it's sooner or later we make a name for ourselves.
feeling the pressure of foc. dunno what to do at times and dunno whether i am capable of tasks. just need to be more proactive to get things going. applies to my studies as well. i know very well that i am laggin and just can't get started. what a talk about all the bucking up but no actions done. really feel like giving it all up.
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