the one with the lookback

past few days, i've been thinking of the days i had in army. i realised, those were really the days. those were the days where i can say i climb up mount biang, those were the days when i said those words "firers, own time own target carry on", those were the days when my fitness was at its peak, those were the days where i was punished with 4 extras, those were the days where i really grew as a man. i can see myself like my uncle, after so many years down the road, he could still vividly remembers the details of what happened during his army days. he could even single out a particular person. i would too. those times are times where i would carry it to my grave. and i believed, everyone else, no matter how hard that time was, would also look back at it and said: i've been there and done that.

but there are other times that i remember as well. those nitty gritty details of school days where i pontant classes. it's a marvel what life is. fill with beautiful memories as one live by. of course there will be sad moments when you look back, your heart will ache. i hope that i can learn to really cherish the times ahead that i have. and seriously think of what i want in the future and not to continue wasting life as it is. but of course, action speaks louder than words.

the one with the marathon

yes i did it. but it comes with many prices. legs cramped, thigh abrasion, blisters on my feet. but it was all worth it. although i walked for most of my 42.195km, it really took me to my limits. route marches and intensive tekaning back in the army days cannot be compared to the shagness of this marathon. overall, it is really mind over matter. i am glad that i am able to do this at least once.

i really dunno wat is going on nowadays. am i really tat bad? i guess things are these bad because of me. because of my selfishness and laziness. because of my proscratination.