the one with the fucked up tutors

3 tutors for my core. all cannot make it.

1st : a bullet train tutor that just talked from the beginning of the seminar to the end of it. without even checking with the class whether we even noe what is he talking about. i checked, some dunno at all. i admit he knows his stuff at the back of his hand. but he can't teach for nuts. yes we should have stopped him when we dun understand. but i think nobody want to show that they dun understand and didnt do tat. if we did, the class wun carry on cos he will be stopped every single moment

2nd: dunno what he is talking about as well. dunno his stuff. he would ask mindless and stupid questions about the answers even though it was pretty obvious. and even take some time to digest what the student was talking about. really doubt his capability as a tutor.

3rd: another one that talk to himself as well. can go one huge round in explaining a 1+1=2 concept. adding on rubbish to confuse us. came on the first day of lecture and told us he dunno how to teach. wat a start and it's so true.

how to pass when such tutors are around?

the one with the same

been through hall life for over a year now. realized that some things doesn't change. events are still as laggy as before. not organised, not done properly and mostly in a sloppish manner. that's the way it works and will always be. even for a so called important even like AGM. people can be so late and ended up with audience having to wait for them. if that's the case, what kind of msg are you sending to the rest of the hall residents? that's why i am imposing a strict rule of punctuality. actually i am so pissed off with people who doesn't care less about timing that i really want them to just vanish from this world. or my world.

all is not so bad. hall spirit is still there. i guess. for the old residents mainly. i believe in helping out others. in the sense of showing up ur face for some event even though how much you think the event sucks. it's a way of helping each other. with less participation due to the new system, it's encouraging to see people still willing to help. still having that sense of belonging. no obligation to do but doing it volunteerily. however, damn pissed with some asshole who doesn't give a shit. yeah we all got better things to do. who does? to think that you wanted to go for jcrc main comm. what the hell. yes, joining something big will help in ur resume in the future. but so what if u join without the passion for it? you won't get the sastifaction at the end of it. i really hope my committee have the same passion.

drifting for half a semester. 得过且过is the word. dunno what i am doing. living each day by day, week by week, month by month. letting time just slip by my hand. having that stupidity feeling back again. feel that i really can't make the cut to carry on studying. feel so difficult to continue. even happening to my running schedule. feel weak and get so tired easily. gave up and walked on some occasion. why is this happening? i have no idea.

feel trapped once again. sth is not going the way i wan to be. sth have to be done to get things right. what is it? feelings trapped inside me again. not a good thing.