the one where i want to be carefree

soaring the sky like a bird. i would want that.

the one with the year ahead

i foresee a tough and rough road ahead for me and i believe that what i experienced last year can't be compared to this path that i have chosen. more interpersonal communication required, more determination and perserverance needed, more committment needed, and more intellectual brains needed. so many things and all seemed so little time even before things started or already on its course.

i think too much. seeing things the way even before it even happened or even actually doing. i proscrastinate. once again. postponing those once promised minor events and eventually didn't even do it. why? i really dunno. can't kick this bad habit of mine.

it's not easy to make decisions. especially when it involves people around u. close to u. have to give a proper explanations for the decisions i made. it's not that easy. it's my gut instinct on certain issues. i believe i am right. don't really like to be proven wrong at times but just gotta accept some facts.

it's not easy to communicate. even after taking up effective interpersonal communication module, it's easier said than done. it's hard to put words into actions. it's only after when things happened then you would realise the essence of the modules. and i get back to my point of being able to read people's mind. i seriously want to. hard to grasp what others trying to express at times. learn all those things about verbal and non-verbal actions. it only gives u a rough idea, not the full picture. and who knows whether the rough idea is right.

sometimes, you encounter situations where you want to do sth about it but you can't cos of certain issues. 进退两难 in chi i think. but it really gets on my nerves and pissed me off when i see such situations and there's nothing i can do about it.

it's already week 4. not a lot of work done. really dunno how am i going to survive this year ahead with all the committment and challenges that lies ahead of me. i know it's not easy. i need support.

the one with the complaints!!!!!

read in an article that students only know how to complain about school issues and not doing anything about it. and we do not give credit to the good things that our admin has done for us to make our life better. please, i believe we do give credit but there isn't a proper channel for us to do so. take for example in real life, do we get more complaints than credit for feedback for mcdonald's delivery? i think more complaints. and for the low turnout for talks , i think that we have already given up on our hope on them to address our greivances to the school admin. time after time had there been attempts by student population to try to persuade the admin thru them to stop some price hike or amenities fees but all we get is nothing but the same results with some excuses that we just had to accept.

regarding change of textbooks and we having to keep changing every semester, i seriously think that the authors or professors who wrote books are in cahoots with the school admin in cheating our money. give u a scenario, a module requires 2 textbooks, A($50) written by foreigners and B($20) written by our own professor. A and B cost $45 as a set and bundle. Sem 1 students buy the set while sem 2 students were offered books C($50) written by foreigners and B($20) by the same prof and Sem 2 students had to buy the bundle($45) cause it is cheaper although sem 1 students maybe selling it for as cheap as $5. so tell me.. is it fair?

shuttle bus services is getting from bad to worse. frequency comes in 20 mins and in 2 buses! why? please don't give me lame excuses of human traffic or wat. isn't it ridiculous that 2 buses met each other given the perimeter of the school? i really beg to differ. and the bus driver is even worse. refusing to pick up a student who was just in time for the bus and he simply just drove off. what if the student had some important things to reach the school for? you can argue that she could have left earlier. but what is the difference if i was already at the busstop 20 mins ago? the bus wasn't even here at all.

yah loads of complaints but nothing is done. give me a proper channel to do so. no point going through so many channels up to the head. the message might be distorted in the end or worse, not even through to who i intended the message for.

the one with the movie click

another heartwarming movie by adam sandler. a simple gadget that most people would like to have: a universal remote control. the message that it wanted to bring across was strong. since young, we wanted to grow up as fast as possible to be adults. we also wanted to skip some processes that we dislike or felt that it was a waste of time. but little did we know that such time are precious as well. appreciate is the keyword. sometimes, time passes so fast that we fail to appreciate it. and it's all the little actions in life that you take that you gotta take notice before you regret it in the future. and everything only happens once. once it's over, you can't bring back the time to where it used to be. what's done is already done. there's no turning back and only regret your actions.

fuck NTU management. bloody sch keep changing textbooks every semester. what the fuck for? yah updating the school standards to keep up with the society. but is it necessary to change it every damn fucking semester? and if there's changes, why put it in the middle of an academic year for NBS year 1? to earn our bloody money? at least have the same standard for the same lot of students. not different ones for the same lot. where is the fairness? we are bloody students. not fucking rich students. buy and buy. change and change. even coming up with car park charges. and is there tranparency for our school fees? i do not wish to find out that my near 3k per sem sch fees is used to build that stupid SADM. don't get me started on student union. always coming up with excuses after sch has implemented measures. do they really fight for us or are they in cahoots? or the sch just don't listen to SU at all. nobody knows the truth i think.

the one with the FOC 06/07

after 4 days of camp, foc finally came to an end. through this camp, i really learnt alot of things. and it feels really good when your efforts are being appreciated. it's all so sad that all good things have to come to an end and i truely gonna miss all the fun that we have through meetings, senior camp, actual camp.

actually, i really got a lot on my mind that i wanted to say about this whole camp but just can't seem to put down in words. i just want to cherish this beautiful memory that everyone has given me during this period of time from planning phase all the way to the execution phase. it's really a wonderful journey and i don't regret being part of this management committee. i hope i will always remember this phase of my life.

but i realized that by being part of the management committee, i didn't get to know the freshies. it's a totally different experience from last year.

a big thank you to all of you who have made this camp possible and a successful one.