the one where i made a mistake

really can't believe what happened to me today. i noe something was going to turn out bad for this paper. had this really bad omen the day before. i guess i was too stressed out to even notice the last page of the paper. just blew away 8marks like that. after nearly 13 years of studying in school, i made a mistake. i know that it's costly. it's going to be there haunting me. i swear i wun made another mistake like this ever again. was so disappointed with myself for doing that. my only hope of doing well gone down the drain.

i really hate exams. but who doesn't? i just tot that this is a pathway to what i wanna do in the future. don't really think i can do well in exams at all. suck at it totally. i wanna do business but everyone says you need a degree at least first. but does it really matters? does it really determines your future on what you gonna do or be like 10 years down the road? i really have no idea now. i really dread studying now. looking at the books and notes just turned me off. i just want all this to end again. i wan to earn big bucks and i dun wan to study. what a joke! that's what every one want too.

and another thing about i just want to stress something. you like what you wanna do. i like what i wanna do. i dun criticise or pinpoint on why do you like to do that. but why must you say things unpleasant to my ears. there are different interests. unless i am you or you are me, there's no way i can like the same things. so please, accept what others like or dislike. if you don't like it, keep it to yourselves. don't just say it out for the sake of saying. you are not that great either.

the one after exam papers

i am not the kind that like to talk about the details about the exams scripts. yah you can tell me how long you took to flip your books, how many pages you wrote, whether you finish the paper or not. but dun come rattling to me about this question that question. i dun wan to noe. yes, u can say that it's denial of knowing the truth about how i have done for the paper. but my logic is: what's the point of knowing when it's all over? even you think you are right, the marker wouldn't think so. that's what i think about that. i realised we dun get back our papers after exams. that's a sad thing. how ever are we going to learn what we have got right or wrong for whatever we have written? so then wat's the point anymore? we will never know and only the marker for our paper would.

somethings just pissed me off. i am being biased but that's it. sometimes it is just damn annoying. i am not good with some stuff, but i am better than others with some. and this is true for anyone. i believe that there's always someone out there that is much much better than yourself. i noe this sound pessimistic and lacking confidence, but going back to the topic of confidence again, is being too confident a good thing? go ask your friends that. i guess they will say a moderate amount is just nice.

feeling a bit sad about some stuff. just dun wish to get it off my chest again. haha.