the one with the running?

went for a run just now. but don't know whether i consider this to be a run. first time in history that i actually stop and pause, walk for a while, then to my own surprise i turn around and walk back. really don't know what it signifies.

is being punctual a virtue? if it is, then do i have to change to accomodate others just because they like to dilly dally and just let precious time fly by? if u consider that a virtue, i got nothing to say. to me, it's a terrible habit. since it is a habit, i will not accomodate with it and let it affect my own set of principles.

saw zhongmin's msn msg:"must we always give in to people? but do people actually appreciate what you did for them or that they take you for granted?" . no you don't have to always give in to poeple. it's a give and take situation to me. i guess for me, maybe i am lamenting or just feeling pitiful for myself. but i have been taken for granted too many times and i dunno whether people appreciate the effort. if they do, how to they express themselves? i really don't know either. i don't blame them. it's the situation that we have to face and overcome whenever in our lives. give and take.

the one where lifeis unfair

in economics, we learnt that in everything that we choose or do, there is an oppurtunity cost which means that you can't have the best of both worlds. thus to me, this is unfair. you treat others well and would prefer others to do the same to you as well. but do you get what you wanted? not in every case, almost never i think. i don't know how is this unfair but it's true. go think about it. sometimes when you think that you have already done something right, it just take the next second to turn things around and things aren't the same anymore. i want to continue to treat people nice and always with a smile, but i am afraid there comes a day where i reveal my true colours and everything won't be the same anymore. i think all this boils down to do unto others as would others would do unto you. life's unfair. i hope i does in the future.

didn't really had a good day. hope today will be a better one.

the one with the value of time

does this topic looks familiar? i keep talking, or rather complaining about it. but i really find it damn annoying. today the same person step into class at 1030(lessons supposed to start at 930). what kind of signals are you sending to the tutor that you are consistently late for lessons? you don't care about the lessons at all? if that is the case, please do yourself a favour and don't even bother coming to class.

a few minutes late is okay. perhaps half hour for major traffic jams or held ups. but one hour late is absurb. especially when you are staying in hall. i really had enough of people being late and still do not have the courtesy to apologise or the urgency. but there is really nothing i can do about it. i have said i will learn to accept people for who they are cos all of us are different and unique in our very way. but i think value of time is very important. so just an advice, wake up ur idea or you will suffer in the future.

and yes, i finally know how to put the tagboard le. feel free to tag, but no rubbish please.

the one with business students vs rest of the world

business students have no future. to be able to earn a keep in the outside world, one must acquire a skill such as engineering or bio sci, etc. one who study business can't venture in other fields while one who have an engineering degree can still do business. this is what i hear all the time. but is that true? i don't agree. i will take engin as an example but no offence to anyone.

engin students study maths, physics and others for their degree. what they acquire is a skill that will help them in their careers such as civil or enviromental. we don't really study the theories. we learnt the skills that are essential for our survival in the working society. we deal with public relations and communicating with people. the presentations that we do now in school is just to prepare us for bigger and more formal presentations in the future. that is our skill. if anyone thinks that it is an easy feat and can dare say they won't be even tongue tied to speak in front of people, go think about it.

projects and projects is what we do. engin students do homework and lab. we are just different in our way of doing stuff and our passion for what we want to do in the future. people say engineers can venture into business if they decided to quit engin. but is it so easy? and if they wan to venture into business, why do they take engin as a career in the first place? having doubts after he or she graduate from school? i chosen business because i wan to make big bucks and also i have totally no interest in engin stuff. that's why i have made up my mind.

come to think about it, everything around us revolves around business. whatever courses that you take, it will still be related to business. communications studies->journalist->papers->sales->business, civil engin->buildings->bidding->build shops or houses-> business, electrical engin->electronics stuff->computers->selling them and obtaining patents for wat?-> business. all and all, business is still needed to market or sell the products. we are still needed for public relations. but does civil engin need the help of bio sci students? i am not sure though. there's really no denial that everything is still link back to business.

that's what i have to say now. couldn't think of anymore arguments but there's sure to come in the future. maybe i was too harsh in my words.

i really hope to have my dream come through. it's not impossible. i just need to figure a way out.

the one

didn't really want to revert back to my old self. but circumstances has forced me to do that.

the one with the music

i like music. songs that i can sing. songs that will blow my mind away. that's why i post lyrics here too.

exams are drawing near. back to mugging once again. but can i really make it this time round? i don't know.

don't even noe why i am blogging now. just think that it's been a really long time since i blog. don't want to say sad things here again. noe that i will just write what i felt immediately but it will diminish away after some time. might as well throw this blog away. haha.

just a song that i like...

k-ci and jojo, all my life

I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of, I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I really love you

chorus

You're all that I ever known, when you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

the one with the lyrics: depeche mode, somebody

depeche mode, somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She will hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

feel like things inside me are going to explode anytime. why is it so hard to get things off my chest? i think i am scared of opinions. how people would look at me once i said things. and this blog? it's just a comfort zone for me though i think less than 10% of what is in my mind is written here. why can't things be simpler? i wasn't like this in the past. i have changed. but was it for the better or for the worse? i don't know. maybe karma is setting in whenever i think of it. i don't know how long i can survive to be that "happy-go-lucky" guy. i want to show my emotions as well. i think alot. it's really dragging me down in things that i do. it's even thinking now when i am typing. i really hate that. why can't i just say that i don't like that at all? or did i spare too much thought for the people around me that i am neglecting myself. feels like i am lamenting. damn it. this blog aint getting me anywhere is sharing what i thought. was even comtemplating a diary. but i guess it would be the same. i hate myself for keep complaining. i really want to tell things. be open and trash things out. life's so unfair. it's totally unfair. something in my chest that i really wan to get it out. it's so damn freaking hard. so damn freaking painful that sometimes it turns numb. alot of things i should have said wasn't said on the spot. and when it's over, i simply forget about it. but when another thing pops out, it is accumulating in one corner of my mind slowly, unknowingly. i know that's not good. but there's nothing i can do either. wanted very much to tell but everytime, i simply let it go. it's about everything. heart is aching. maybe there are a lot of reasons for it to hurt. i just can't figure out which one weighs more. i seldom talk nowadays i realise. that's bad. don't know when will that happen. don't know when i will break down. funny thought i had: mental people go to aslyum cos they think too much is it? so they need an enclosed room to vent their frustration to stop thinking? haiz. after writing so much, i still didn't get my points clear. friends, please don't judge me. don't ask either. time will tell. that's what i always say. but is that true? will that ever be true? time will tell.

realised this is going to be my 100th entry. i am hiding too much things. should i tell or should i not? i really want to be given the gift of mind reading. or perhaps what i really want is just a simple life and stop thinking too much. i read too much into things. or do i? it ain't gonna be easy. it's in fact going to be tough. real tough. really wanted to talk to someone now. and blurt everything out. is that possible? i hope i can. so i hope i would be that happy go lucky guy again. someone just stabbed me please. i had enough.

the one with the lyrics: delta goodrem ft brian mcfadden, almost here

delta goodrem ft. brian mcfadden, almost here

Did I hear you right
'cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you

Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Oh please protect me

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

chorus