the one with the first post of 2006

it's been so long since i logged in my last entry. i have to admit that i am too lazy to do that nowadays. perhaps it's because what i write here is gonna be read by my friends. somethings are still hard to express as usual and i don't want them to ask questions about my entries. the thought of them knowing what i am thinking is kinda scary. i will learn to open up and be more straightforward in the future..

i still don't know what is going on. i am going crazy soon. heart aches whenever that happens. it's been so long le and it's still like that. trust? i don't know.