the one where i am pissed

ok. want to vent my anger here again. why is it that i am 21 and i still don't enjoy the freedom or at least the trust from my mum? please don't treat me like a child anymore. show me the trust i deserved. it's really no use telling her the umpteen times i had said. what's the point? she is just 食古不化。i can never change the fact. if this carry on, she will just force me to do the things that she dislike the most. i noe that ppl will argue that parents will always treat us like we are still very young. but she is just overdoing it. it's ridiculous.

and it's not that i buy expensive stuff. the things to my liking are all just overpriced. do u expect me to buy something not to my liking and cheap? then what's the point of buying?

the one with the personality test

Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging
Dependable, reliable and trustworthy, they like to belong to solid organisations that are reasonable in their ambitions and loyal to their employees. They feel useful when their roles and responsibilities are clearly established and they can monitor their activities and productivity in tangible ways. They tend to be rather modest, traditional and conventional, to like sensible clothing, to be thrifty, careful and wise with both money and possessions.

Once they accept a project, they will see it to the end. They manage their time well and are realistic about how much time and resources will be needed.

They tend to like to stay in one neighbourhood, often choosing to live close to where they were themselves raised. They are often involved with volunteer organisations and have a developed sense of citizenship and accountability. When they purchase something, it is after careful consideration; rarely will they buy something without having a known need or use for it. They may keep possessions for a lifetime and treasure those that were given to them.

They tend to have a good memory for specific facts that are necessary in their day-to-day life at work and at home. They accumulate facts and details to orient themselves, relying on repeated experiences that have been proven trustworthy. A fact once experienced may be the product of circumstance and happenstance; it is not in and of itself reliable. When an introverted sensing type hears an idea, they rummage through reams of archived facts to find an experience that provides information for the relevance and realism of an idea. When an introverted sensing type utters, "It's never been done!" they are saying that no information about the relevance or usefulness of the idea is available to them. They tend to shy away from surprises and what is perceived as unnecessary change.

that's me. see tally anot. you judge. lol

the one with the 感触

bro left for shanghai(gip) on saturday night. relatives came to see him off too. i have always admired my bro for his carefree spirit. he was the one i looked up too at home, even in terms of fashion sense. though we seldom talk, he would speak up for me and wun question my decisions for stuff. although we weren't that close in the sense that we tell each other stuff, i gonna miss him. he will only be back in end july. it's always the case that when someone is not around then you will treasure him or her more. what have we got to do to really learn about this fact so that we can treasure everyone no matter they are around or not around.

people would never forget about their first times. i mean in terms of anything. and it's pretty hard to bring that special feelings. i miss those days in army(once again, please dun treat me as an army freak, it's just the enjoyable times that i had). friends that were so close to u can seem total strangers when u see them around. trust me, it's true. you can never bring back that period once it's over. so i guess it's to enjoy the times when you or me can. my promise to catch up with all my friends have turned futile. keep proscratinating. super bad habit of mine. when can i ever change?

the one with the lyrics: if you're gone, matchbox 20

if you're gone, matchbox 20

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak-But I think you're wrong
I think you're already leaving
Feels like your hand is on the door
I thought this place was an empire
But now I'm relaxed-I can't be sure

I think you're so mean
I think we should try
I think I could need this in my life
I think I'm just scared - I think too much
I know this is wrong it's a problem I'm dealing
If you're gone - maybe it's time to go home
There's an awful lot of breathing room
But I can hardly move

If you're gone - baby you need to come home
Cuz there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you

I bet you're hard to get over
I bet the room just won't shine
I bet my hands I can stay here
I bet you need - more than you mind

chorus

the one with the proscrastination

once again, i did it. school just started for a couple of weeks and those promises about not skipping lectures seemed not kept by me. do i want a repeat of last semester? no i don't. someone please wake me up. if not history will simply repeat itself.

i have never felt like this before. guess i have really learnt and grown. it's good and bad in both ways i think...

the one with the first post of 2006

it's been so long since i logged in my last entry. i have to admit that i am too lazy to do that nowadays. perhaps it's because what i write here is gonna be read by my friends. somethings are still hard to express as usual and i don't want them to ask questions about my entries. the thought of them knowing what i am thinking is kinda scary. i will learn to open up and be more straightforward in the future..

i still don't know what is going on. i am going crazy soon. heart aches whenever that happens. it's been so long le and it's still like that. trust? i don't know.