the one with the first time driving

first time i drove alone out to somewhere near my house for supper with my friends. i just want to prove to my parents to just place that little trust they have in me. to be confident that i can drive on my own. i hate that rubbish about needing more time for me to get used to it and not to be so anxious to drive. if i don't practice more, where is the chance at all? i think i got to stand up against them more often to have that chance. pretty ridiculous that they even trust their own children. to think that my brother was afraid to let me to do that too. always thought that they will be more liberal than my conservative parents.

got alot things that i want to do after the exams. but don't know if i got enough money to do all that. money is also under the control of them. all those savings from ns is with her. had to answer to how i spend my own money whenever i used them. really ridiculous. i wish i could have control of my own life. what an irony that i am turning 21 in less than a week.

couldn't sleep. been thinking alot. but i am really happy. :)