the one once again

karma. it's there whether you believe it anot. cos i am experiencing every single painful moment of it. what goes around comes around. it happens. had 4 dreams last night, and 2 of which i saw myself running. running for wat purpose? i didn't know. maybe it's trying to tell me something that i should do. in a few hours time, my last paper will end. and everything will end just as well. i should stop deceiving myself again. things don't always go the way you wanted it to be. actually, it never does. so just learn to adapt. i have been doing that since my ocs days. i believe i can do that. things aint gonna be easy. but time will tell. really. time will tell everything. but actually i already knew the truth from the start. so stupid of me. i can't seem to stop thinking. can someone just save me from this hole that i am falling into? maybe i need a faith to confide in. to assure me of things. or maybe i just need to open up myself. or even maybe there is nothing i can do about it. life goes on. at this moment, i just want to finish my paper and have a good time tonight. shots, here i come.