the one with the punctuality

what has happened to the value of time? has people totally disregard punctuality as part of their principles? i have experienced it way too much of such situations especially when i start university life. people take it for granted that others will be late and so in the end, everyone turns up late. aren't we supposed to be the future pillars or generations of singapore? we can be late for small meetings that are held in school, what makes it so sure that we wouldn't do the same thing in the future when we are out in the working world? don't give excuses that when we go out to work, we will change because it's different outside. habits will form and it will still be the same case when we go to work. so please, stop all this nonsense and be on time, even when meeting your friends. it's a good principle to abide. i can never say that i am never late before, but at least i try to be punctual on most occasions. let's cherish the value of time once again.

the one with the wonderful evening

had a wonderful dinner at savor today. tried french cuisine too. was quite nice actually. then head down to southbridge for a jazz live band where i received a wonderful and lovely surprise. can't thank her enough for everything that she did. it was the best birthday i ever had. thank you...

the one with my birthday

had a really great bdae on wed. alot of my friends turn up on that day. really glad and happy too. can't thank everyone enough for turning up. it was my first time playing host to so many people. sorry if i 招待不周。hope all of my friends have fun too. i finally reached the "ripe old age" of 21. thank you all for all the lovely presents too.

the one with the first time driving

first time i drove alone out to somewhere near my house for supper with my friends. i just want to prove to my parents to just place that little trust they have in me. to be confident that i can drive on my own. i hate that rubbish about needing more time for me to get used to it and not to be so anxious to drive. if i don't practice more, where is the chance at all? i think i got to stand up against them more often to have that chance. pretty ridiculous that they even trust their own children. to think that my brother was afraid to let me to do that too. always thought that they will be more liberal than my conservative parents.

got alot things that i want to do after the exams. but don't know if i got enough money to do all that. money is also under the control of them. all those savings from ns is with her. had to answer to how i spend my own money whenever i used them. really ridiculous. i wish i could have control of my own life. what an irony that i am turning 21 in less than a week.

couldn't sleep. been thinking alot. but i am really happy. :)

the one with the fashion

can anyone define what is fashion? what is the correct sense of dressing? went down to town yesterday night. saw a group of young punks(as i would described) with multi-coloured spiked hair. i must really salute them for their courage to be able to even walk out of their house in that way. call me old fashioned or whatever but you would never catch me in that or what so ever. another dress sense that i detest is guys wearing jeans with slippers or sandals. what goes with jeans have to be covered shoes. that's my own opinion though.

the one once again

karma. it's there whether you believe it anot. cos i am experiencing every single painful moment of it. what goes around comes around. it happens. had 4 dreams last night, and 2 of which i saw myself running. running for wat purpose? i didn't know. maybe it's trying to tell me something that i should do. in a few hours time, my last paper will end. and everything will end just as well. i should stop deceiving myself again. things don't always go the way you wanted it to be. actually, it never does. so just learn to adapt. i have been doing that since my ocs days. i believe i can do that. things aint gonna be easy. but time will tell. really. time will tell everything. but actually i already knew the truth from the start. so stupid of me. i can't seem to stop thinking. can someone just save me from this hole that i am falling into? maybe i need a faith to confide in. to assure me of things. or maybe i just need to open up myself. or even maybe there is nothing i can do about it. life goes on. at this moment, i just want to finish my paper and have a good time tonight. shots, here i come.

the one again

once again, i am here to complain. beginning to look more like a place for me to vent my emotions on. can't really take all the stress and uncertainties le. but i just don't want to affect anyone. maybe i should just burst everything out but does it really helps? i never know if don't even try. but it can be hurting. i am really pretty much upset by it. and it hurts in my heart very much. i shouldn't know things that i shouldn't know at all. as they said, ignorance is a bliss. i really believe that. so i hope i can continue acting stupid and don't know stuff. it hurts even more when i noe. really don't know what i am doing also. i shouldn't have done things that i had. it's rude. but i am just curious. maybe i should stop being so nice and be bad to everyone. then i can really free my emotions and thoughts. i just happen to be there at the right time and right time. but the time is over soon i guess. time to move back and stop deceiving myself. to my frens: don't ask me what is happening. i would be thankful.

the one with the lyrics: savage garden, i don't know you anymore

savage garden, i don't know you anymore

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me

Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda, don't stop
Keep that chin up, you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

chorus

I know I let you dow
nAgain and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day
So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

chorus

I see your face
I see your face

every song brings a meaning to me... good if you can get it.

the one with the understanding?

i realised how frustrating it is to not to know what a person is thinking. i was like that.

the one with the first paper

first paper today was marketing. totally crapped my way through the 2.5 hours paper. had practically no idea whether the things i wrote were right or wrong. people were talking about the papers after that. i didn't really like that. actually hate that. i realised i have very low expectations of myself. people were talking about getting As and Bs for this exams. but what i really need is just to pass this semester without failing any subjects. true, one should aim high so when u fall, it woudn't be that much of a difference. however, if one aim too high, the fall would be too much to take. that's my point of view. but nonetheless, it is the after period that matters. one will learn from their mistakes.

hell begins for me today and it will last all the way to the 16th. counting down the days to the end of the exams. that's every tertiary student wish now. so to all out there, hang on and we shall enjoy the fruits of our labour after all this.

the one with the exams period

was at school yesterday looking for a tutorial room to study at 3pm. every single room was occupied and even notes wrote "room occupied" were pasted everywhere. was pretty shocked at such phenomenon. didn't expect people to be working so hard for the exams. realised i am still not putting much effort in my studies. maybe due to the fact that i have lost touch with textbooks for 3 years le. army really makes my brain work slower.

a wonder how people can be so close at some period of their time spent together. chatting everything under the sun and cracking jokes like nobody's business. but after that period and when u see those people again, you feel like total strangers to them. i felt this when i saw some of my army counterparts whom i once have spent miserable time overseas training. it's a pity such friendships are slowly disintergrating into nothing. but what can we do about it? life moves on for me and for them too. new friendships are forged along the process. it's a vicious cycle.