the one with the updates

less than 10 days before the start of the first paper. beginning to really feel the stress of being a student once again. promised myself not to slack around after all this is over. be a good boy next sem but i know i simply proscrastinate to much. hopefully all this will change in the future. really regretted slacking too much this sem. realised i seldom complain now on the blog. able to relate myself better nowadays. the nut is still being cracked sometimes. maybe i will write more happy stuff in the future instead of the demoralising thoughts that i used to have.

missed the opportunity to participate in this year's marathon. didn't sign up on time and it getting a bit to ex for a run. but i promised myself i will take part next year. it's a personal challenge.

only another prob that i have to face. the cruelty for spelling out the truth when the time comes. it will be very bad i foresee but i gotta tell sooner or later. i feel like shit actually. but i am happy now. having to face the questions and everything on my birthday. i know it's going to be awkward. still trying to figure out how to break the news. i am going to be number one on the hated list.

might not be blogging anytime soon.