troubled mind

i had simply enough of people telling what to do. everytime i made up my mind on something, i would be easily influenced by people's opinions. i can't seem to have a firm mind to think of what i really want to do. taking jap as a ge for example. i was so enthusiatic in learning it. but bro's point of view makes me ponder even more and comtemplated my decision again. he told me to choose one that can make u score even u have no interest in it. it's important. i was like so dissappointed. doing things that i don't like. i've been following their footsteps and not doing what i have always like to do. the first major step i took was to enter ntu biz. not like my bros, taking what they think would earn them a decent rice bowl in the future. i prefer to take something i like and in the process, enjoyed it. everyone want to have a bright future. a decent career, a happy family. of course i do too. but wat if u don't enjoy what u are doing and live the day so sadly. i don't wish for that. i wan to be happy in the things i do.

i have a goal. a bold one. people sure think it would never work out. but i believed so. it's gonna be a lucrative business and i hope to be on top of the coporate ladder in future. that's why i gonna join the ntu investment club. hope that it can better prepare me. i want people to invest in me. kinda bold i think. but no harm having a goal or dream. it drives me forward.