troubled mind

i had simply enough of people telling what to do. everytime i made up my mind on something, i would be easily influenced by people's opinions. i can't seem to have a firm mind to think of what i really want to do. taking jap as a ge for example. i was so enthusiatic in learning it. but bro's point of view makes me ponder even more and comtemplated my decision again. he told me to choose one that can make u score even u have no interest in it. it's important. i was like so dissappointed. doing things that i don't like. i've been following their footsteps and not doing what i have always like to do. the first major step i took was to enter ntu biz. not like my bros, taking what they think would earn them a decent rice bowl in the future. i prefer to take something i like and in the process, enjoyed it. everyone want to have a bright future. a decent career, a happy family. of course i do too. but wat if u don't enjoy what u are doing and live the day so sadly. i don't wish for that. i wan to be happy in the things i do.

i have a goal. a bold one. people sure think it would never work out. but i believed so. it's gonna be a lucrative business and i hope to be on top of the coporate ladder in future. that's why i gonna join the ntu investment club. hope that it can better prepare me. i want people to invest in me. kinda bold i think. but no harm having a goal or dream. it drives me forward.

in deep thoughts

my very first blog. inspired to do this after reading one of my friend's blog. it's amazing how one person can change another's perspective of life. i've been said by someone that i am one that doesn't share much of what i am thinking. i keep to myself to be exact. i think alot. but i find it hard to express myself to really talk it out. maybe i am just to shy or that i can't face the fact that what might happen when i express myself. i dun wanna hurt other people. so please just bear with me.

so in this blog, it's a place where i get to write my thoughts about anything that come to my mind which i dun really wanna talk it out.

tomorrow is the 1st of August and i decided to start doing things the proper way. It's gonna be a hectic uni year ahead and i hope that things would start on a right note. So no more proscatinating for me or at least i will try less of that. be a good boy and study hard. work towards my goal and i will be able to do all that. it's gonna be tough but hope i can do it.

was listening to this song. adam sandler's grow old with you. suddenly reminds me of what i should have really done on foc that day. It would be so nice and sweet i guess. regret saying all that rubbish on that night. was so nervous.and i dun think i would be that calm on that day to have sung this.

adam sandler's
grow old with you

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you